Hi, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in your thinking. I remember asking god for a sign, any sign that he cared about me and to prove that he was real. I waited and waited and still, no sign. I was disgusted and wondered if the JWs sapped all my spirituality. (Which, of course they did, but not completely). Then I realized that I was trying too hard and forcing the issue. JWs have to present God as a neatly tied package that can be picked apart and explained. It's not that easy. I've never gotten the sign that I prayed for, but at times I feel an incredible sense of peace. It's a kind of knowing, that I am not alone. I don't understand it all the time, but I do believe in a higher power, and the spirit that is in all of us.
You have to find your own way, and your own answers. Try to stop obsessing over it for a little while, and maybe your answer will come to you.
I wish you joy and peace in these confusing times.
Jessi
You have to find your own way, and your own answers. Try to stop obsessing over it for a little while, and maybe your answer will come to you.
I wish you joy and peace in these confusing times.
Jessi