Dutchie you summed up my whole post with that one question. What is the point? There isnt one. It makes no difference. Even if I do believe in God he doesnt care about me so why should I care or try to live a certain way.
Nemisis, thats exactly the kind of stuff I'm sick and tired of hearing. If Gods not there for you then you must be doing something wrong. Not enough faith or too selfish or praying for the wrong things or wrong reason or not enough or the wrong way. Keep seeking, Keep asking, keep trying, keep believing ..whatever screw all of that. I'm sick and tired of trying to figure out how I'm supposed to be. Its selfish to ask for what you need yet if you dont have what you need its cause you dont ask for it. Or you can do good things for people but only when you want to not when you feel you should or else you are only doing it for the wrong reason. Or the right reason. hell if I know anymore. I am sick and tired. I am what I am if he doesnt want me like this then fine. I'm not trying to figure out whats right and how I am supposed to think or be anymore.
Hate to over use the phrase but its the only one that fits..SCREW IT..i'm done with that. I'm really not buying the whole thing anymore. it makes no sense at all.
I'm very happy for those who have found that a belief in GOd has improved their lives. I really am. I wish I could say the same but I cant. And I refuse to believe anymore that its cause I'm doing something wrong. I'm tired of being told to have more faith or keep on praying. I dont want to hear anymore excuses for it.
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