I don't want to be MEAN or HARSH, but what is it with people losing their belief (let alone faith) in GOD. This board is full of people who once had a strong belief in a higher power and once that belief system was shaken up everything falls apart. Just because the "picture" you had of GOD wasn't correct doesn't mean He doesn't exist, or that He doesn't care. It's just so negative...and when things are negative, NOTHING is every accomplished, including searching and finding a truer "picture" of GOD.
OK, your beliefs have been shattered. GOT IT. But hopefully not your tremendous desire to know GOD and where you fit in to His Plans. Start from square one...blank slate, forget what you have been "taught". Now let's be the teensiest positive... if you have lots of doubts... STOP Look to those who have a strong and real faith...what steps did they take...how do they get answers to prayer, or why is it that their beliefs are so strong. It's kind of like those that want to be successful in life....you go to those that have succeeded and learn from them. They don't have all the answers, but they can sure give you a lot of clues and tips....and by the way, they've done it.
And that's where you start...from the smallest seed...it's got to be nurtured and taken care of, one step at a time...but be positive and lean on the faith of others until you can get going under your own power.