Aimless, welcome!
I was raised as a witness and know those feelings you've had. I have been going to therapy in this past year to help me keep my confidence and self worth up. Its hard when you're told over and over how sinful you are or how disappointed everyone is with what wrong you did. It can creep up on you even when your present life is going well. I get so angry thinking of how humiliating it is being questioned and counseled over personal things that were done. Telling three men crap that is none of their damned business so that you can be in a "better relationship with Jehovah and keep the congregation clean" and whatever else you want to throw in there. That stuff does a number on us, that is for sure. I hate the manipulative ways that some people use to make your life hell. That witness kid could care less about what you guys did. His conscience didn't bother him. He wanted to make you miserable and try to break up your new relationship. That is so twisted but I've seen it happen.
I was raised as a witness and know those feelings you've had. I have been going to therapy in this past year to help me keep my confidence and self worth up. Its hard when you're told over and over how sinful you are or how disappointed everyone is with what wrong you did. It can creep up on you even when your present life is going well. I get so angry thinking of how humiliating it is being questioned and counseled over personal things that were done. Telling three men crap that is none of their damned business so that you can be in a "better relationship with Jehovah and keep the congregation clean" and whatever else you want to throw in there. That stuff does a number on us, that is for sure. I hate the manipulative ways that some people use to make your life hell. That witness kid could care less about what you guys did. His conscience didn't bother him. He wanted to make you miserable and try to break up your new relationship. That is so twisted but I've seen it happen.