Welcome Aimless,
"I feel really aimless in life now............i have very small aspirations that feel unreachable.........I have trouble defining what i want in life now still and it been 3 years............ I feel a total lack of ambition..........i dont even play video games as much as i used to because i find myself "too tired" to even do that... -aimless"
I know how you feel, this has also been my reaction to leaving the witnesses. Its as if woven in that particular set of hopes and aspirations that the jw's offer is part of your own being. When you leave, be it by design or force its almost impossible to reclaim all thats yours. You just have to make your own life now and it seems that is what you are doing, so hold in there because it will get easier with time.
"I would describe myself as feeling ashamed and embarassed when it comes to my time as jehovah's witnesses"
I think its a good thing to recognize the role we played in becoming a witness, its a mistake only to see ourselves as victims. There is a lot I have learned about myself because of my JW experiance so its not all bad ,most people if not all fall for some irrational ideology in their time so its nothing to be too embarrassed about.
Anyway, wishing you all the best and hope you stick around because this is a great place for recovery.
Peppermint
"I feel really aimless in life now............i have very small aspirations that feel unreachable.........I have trouble defining what i want in life now still and it been 3 years............ I feel a total lack of ambition..........i dont even play video games as much as i used to because i find myself "too tired" to even do that... -aimless"
I know how you feel, this has also been my reaction to leaving the witnesses. Its as if woven in that particular set of hopes and aspirations that the jw's offer is part of your own being. When you leave, be it by design or force its almost impossible to reclaim all thats yours. You just have to make your own life now and it seems that is what you are doing, so hold in there because it will get easier with time.
"I would describe myself as feeling ashamed and embarassed when it comes to my time as jehovah's witnesses"
I think its a good thing to recognize the role we played in becoming a witness, its a mistake only to see ourselves as victims. There is a lot I have learned about myself because of my JW experiance so its not all bad ,most people if not all fall for some irrational ideology in their time so its nothing to be too embarrassed about.
Anyway, wishing you all the best and hope you stick around because this is a great place for recovery.
Peppermint