Hi Aimless,
You are right - alot of people here had - or still do - feel similar feelings. And it is also true things will get better. I found it hard to talk to my girlfriend (who became my fiance and then my wife) even after we were married about it - it felt weird. But after doing research and working things out it was the best thing to explain what I knew and what I had learnt to her (knowledge is power) Maybe you could do the same with your boyfriend? Plus a puppy is always good - you can talk to them anytime!
- sparrow