Welcome
Remember this whether you go back or not.
Your approval comes from God alone - not from men, not even from men who claim to act on God's behalf - like you, they are only men and as such they're imperfect.
Keep your eyes and heart fixed on God alone no matter how bad those elders try to make you feel (if you go back) - you serve Him
PS - DO NOT tell them you've visited this site or you might be in trouble for that too!!!
I do hope you stick around to research though - ignore the fluffy threads and go for the Bible study ones. Don't be afraid to ask questions - no judgement here!