Welcome

Remember this whether you go back or not.

Your approval comes from God alone - not from men, not even from men who claim to act on God's behalf - like you, they are only men and as such they're imperfect.

Keep your eyes and heart fixed on God alone no matter how bad those elders try to make you feel (if you go back) - you serve Him

PS - DO NOT tell them you've visited this site or you might be in trouble for that too!!! 

I do hope you stick around to research though - ignore the fluffy threads and go for the Bible study ones.  Don't be afraid to ask questions - no judgement here!

Hi

welcome

I used to feel inadequate all the time but feel a lot better now

this board has helped me a lot.

ql

Welcome:

I agree with hope4others.  The great majority of the people that post on this website do not favor the jehovahs witness organization.  As a suggestion, ask yourself if what you have done to "sin" are really sins or just the jehovahs witness guilt trip indoctrination. 

For the longest time, I thought the problem was with me. I guess that's the point of it all, isn't it? You're not doing enough and (unspoken) you therefore are never deserving of Jehovah's unconditional love. And if you're not spending every waking moment talking, thinking, and doing theocratic things, you'll be destroyed at Armageddon.

What a way to live.

Nobody is beyond redemption.

The JWs don't have the truth.

I love your screen name.

Embrace the suck.

Burn

Welcome to this site .It is the UNCONDITIONAL LOVE site  you asked anyone else feel inadequate

While you are in the Jehovahs Witnesses you will always feel inadequate. WHY? Because you are doing WORKS. Every one on earth feels this way at sometime or other in their life. But when you start thinking for your self & realise your a real person that if you really DO believe the ONLY truth>Jesus.He died for you because we are not able to do everything RIGHT>>> I dont know why the elders have counselled you. But they are men! with faults also. So just KNOW God loves YOU!!! So continue in prayer & read what all these folks on here think about the Organization ,( JW) Not all are believers not all think alike but we all CARE about each other. You can say anything you like about your life. No one will condemn- they cant -because God examines your heart. & by your e-mail I would deem yours it pretty O.K.

Not sure if this will help you or not, but here goes:

As the son of an elder, born into the organization, I was always under the mcroscope. People would pick at every little thing, and though I never did anything wrong (even by JW standards) I was never doing enough.  At the same time, I saw others getting away with whatever, things getting covered over, power plays, politics, and outright scandals. I struggled for a long time with things going on in the Hall. I would get discouraged and frustrated with what other people were doing, questioning how "Holy Spirit" could allow such things in the congregation.

Then one day, while doing some research, I came across some information that made me start questioning fundamental dates. That made me do even more research outside of the WT index and the WT Library CD-rom.

I started reading whatever I could get my hands on. I know the internet has been condemned by the society for years, so I went to the public library and started checking out references and following up on "facts" presented in the literature. What I found was astonishing. 

10p posted a comment earlier about reading Richard Dawkin's works. Oddly enough, it was a reference in the Creation book that got me to start reading The Selfish Gene by Dawkins. That will change your perspective on a lot of things.

Don't let yourself feel inadequate. Work hard to really learn the facts, and weigh them carefully. The "truth" is not always the truth.