Welcome Cognac.....
The emotions that you are going through are normal. A lot of us here have felt this way, that our world was coming down when we find out for ourselves that things just don't mesh right and that it can't be the "truth". Then to add having your family & friends, that you've know your whole life, to all at once shun you. After leaving though, it does give you a sense of freedom. I hope you and your husband can make the decisions that are best for you...
Welcome to the board!
babygirl....