Hi JT:
It's funny that you mention that non JW's cannot understand why you hang on, and don't even see it..
I've been quietly trying to show my JW friend for quite some time now the real "truth".. At times, I think he has seen glimpese of it, but then he appears to put his head back in the sand like the preverbial ostrich.. It's very frustrating to me, but I know that I have to be patient with him..
I cannot comprehend, although I wish I could, exactly how he, or anyone else in his or your position, could feel once they begin to question the very thing they have devoted their life to.. In his case, he was born into the cult, so he's never known anything else..
Interesting comment, and yeah, since I've never been a JW, all I can do is at best watch him fall apart and help pick up the pieces if and when he comes to the realization that he's been living a lie...
Such trama, I feel for you all, even if I never will be able to fully sympathize with you...