Well Berylblue, I dont know why you criticize your eloquence. You are one of the most sincere posters here and its hard not to be moved by what one reads when you write from the heart. I know its all very traumatic . It was for all of us.But you have learnt the horrible truth- Noone can
save your soul with a placebo religious pill. Not really.Noone except
YOU. I know that many spend their entire lives in
delusion unwilling and emotionally incapable of facing the realities of life, theyde rather dream dreams of utopian gardens and suchlike.
Are you strong enough to face up to reality and create your own "godhood" and your own
power?
I think you are.