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Good morning, When I read your post, I couldn't help but well up inside thinking that you could very well be my mom posting this. I was ten, my bro was 11, my older sis was 12, and my lil sis was 8. All of a sudden, one day our mom ceased all activity from our immediate family. Everything stopped! I felt so disturbed about what was going on, I KNEW instinctively at that age even, that something was seriously happening in our lives was wrong and I could say or do nothing about what was (the kult) about to obliterate our entire family nucleus (i'll share my story in great detail one day). I hated her then!! I couldn't understand why and what she was doing anymore. Everything about her changed, as I saw it. It wasnt til after I saw about a year ago, the Flock book, and all the pieces fell into place...her life and her kids lives were now being INSTRUCTED AND DICTATED by this very book. I was stunned and went into a rage. Blasted her good. Yet....I no longer hate her. I yearn for her now. I dream of her often. The other night, she was in my dream. Where was she? At the exjw conference (bwahhhhhhhh) in my dream! I turn around, and there she was. Then I woke.
Your kids love you deep and hard outnfree. WE/they just want you to KNOW our pain that was caused by a decision YOU made without consulting them or ever discussing what the changes would be and if they wanted any part of it. That's what I want my mom to hear from me...m feelings and thoughts back then and today. Perhaps that day will come for you where you can sit down and answer all their questions as to why. I know it will come for me. I will love her always but i want serious answers too. They will too someday.
One day my mom will be posting, she will be out n free too!! Thank you for sharing this. Takes courage.Sincerely, Scally
Good morning, When I read your post, I couldn't help but well up inside thinking that you could very well be my mom posting this. I was ten, my bro was 11, my older sis was 12, and my lil sis was 8. All of a sudden, one day our mom ceased all activity from our immediate family. Everything stopped! I felt so disturbed about what was going on, I KNEW instinctively at that age even, that something was seriously happening in our lives was wrong and I could say or do nothing about what was (the kult) about to obliterate our entire family nucleus (i'll share my story in great detail one day). I hated her then!! I couldn't understand why and what she was doing anymore. Everything about her changed, as I saw it. It wasnt til after I saw about a year ago, the Flock book, and all the pieces fell into place...her life and her kids lives were now being INSTRUCTED AND DICTATED by this very book. I was stunned and went into a rage. Blasted her good. Yet....I no longer hate her. I yearn for her now. I dream of her often. The other night, she was in my dream. Where was she? At the exjw conference (bwahhhhhhhh) in my dream! I turn around, and there she was. Then I woke.Your kids love you deep and hard outnfree. WE/they just want you to KNOW our pain that was caused by a decision YOU made without consulting them or ever discussing what the changes would be and if they wanted any part of it. That's what I want my mom to hear from me...m feelings and thoughts back then and today. Perhaps that day will come for you where you can sit down and answer all their questions as to why. I know it will come for me. I will love her always but i want serious answers too. They will too someday.
One day my mom will be posting, she will be out n free too!! Thank you for sharing this. Takes courage.Sincerely, Scally