It has taken years for me to begin to heal inside and replace their false teachings with true ones. Not an easy task by a long shot!
DJ,
Thank you for trying to understand. There is one thing however you can't relate to.
You became a Christian after exiting the dubs and at least at that point you felt you never left the truth.....you found it! How happy I was with a new hope and to see my anger turn to love and kindness to others. I was happy again. Then.......( and no.....this is not a anti-christian speech I'm about to give)
......I had some disturbing questions in which I began to study.( Fast forward ...as you know me by now and how I feel about this).
Now it starts all over again. Since I
personally feel I followed another lie.....the anger is worse than the first time around. Now I'm mad at god and religion to boot.
It really sucks.
There now....I feel better. And thank you who have helped me here.
Gumby