If I disappear into my own life without them... I will be foregotten. Just like the uncle I never knew I had.In my mind he is just an abstract thought... someone out there... Not a "real" person.As the next generation is born they will not be told about me, just as I was not told about my uncle.Sometimes I think I would like to hang myself in my parent's garage while they are at one of their meetings. I would want them to find me right after being at the Kingdom Hall. But even then, in their minds, they will have still "won"... they will just think, "This is good... now I know he will be resurected in paradise.". 