(((((((((Elsewhere)))))))))
It is only right that you are angry. You are being treated dreadfully. Also, anger is part of the grieving process that we must all go through.
For the brief time that my family shunned me, I found therapy helpful. Unfortunately, I didn't have enough money to chose my therapist. I had to rely on community programs for sliding fee payment. Talking to the therapist does help. I know that you said that you do not want to go to somebody and have to explain everything to him/her. But you should. It helps to talk about it and it lets your therapist know what you are going through.
I would recommend a therapist who specializes in grief counseling.
I wish you well in your recovery processs.
Love,
Robyn