Madman said a cottonpickin mouthful.
I often feel downright foolish when others ask about "why this?" and "why that?" and how often I want to answer with "yeah...what's up with that crap?" I'd like to say I was smoking some really powerful weed or drinking heavily but NO, I wanted so much to just be where I thought I was supposed to be that I accepted so much. I do shake my head and smile now, it's all I can do. But I think it has been beneficial. I told one of my other XJW friends that as a JW it was like I was a capped up bottle of pop constantly being shaken. When the lid came off, I didn't just finally pour out, I exploded. I grew and became so much more aware of things in such a real light (not NEW light, real light) that I have changed so very very much since then and it's just been a year folks...that I refer to my time as a JW as my Neurosis. I am feeling much better now.