After my father completed suicide, I didn't recieve any calls from the elders for encouragemnet for over 2 years, but then when I checked myself into rehab for almost drinking myself to death, they were all over me, couldn't stand it because I wouldn't meet with them. How could I go to the
world for help and not them!!!! It was like they were on a witch hunt or something! CC and I were missing most of the meetings, after dad's suicide. Not one elder came to call on me, but let them hear that you are doing somehthing wrong in their eyes and they are on you like stink on shit.
I'm so pissed right now. All I have to say about that is......... paybacks are hell! All these stories of suicide really overwelm me. It's so sad. Unless you've ever had someone in your family complete suicide, you simple can't imagine the grief it causes. I wouldn't wish it upon your worst enemy.
Just a note I wanted to add. While in counceling, my councelor used the term *completed suicide* instead of *committed suicide* By useing the word committed, it has the connatation of a crime. A person can attempt suicide and if they succeed at it, then they completed it. To say commit is to imply a crime. What people need to realize is that suicide is caused by a desease called depression. Without treatment for this, it can kill you, and even with treatment, it still can kill you. When someone ask me what my father died from, I tell them depression.
Lyin Eyes, I'm sorry that you got upset over this. I can understandable understand. Suicide is a grief that you never get over, you simple learn to live with it. Hang in there sweetie.