Hi all,
I have a new line of thought that I am applying to myself. I emphasize that, because it may or may not be relevant to others.
I am making a strong attempt to stop blaming the WTS for the things I missed out on. I am finding it much more empowering to say, "I decided not to go to college. I decided to pioneer during my youth. I, indeed, have made all of the decisions that have affected my life, either good or bad. This line of thought gives me a sense of freedom.
I recognize that many of the choices I have made in my life have been out of fear. I believe that one reason I chose to remain a witness was because of my fear of life and its consequences. It was easier for me to just expect god to come along and make everything nice nice.
I present this concept as a hypothesis and not as a fact. I am interested in hearing others thoughts.
hugs to all
Joel