After you leave a cult you quickly return to normal. Least I did. (whatever normal is) The problem with your emotions normalizing is that many of yourloved ones remain locked up inside the cult and our emotions have to be curtailed still. I've been out for over 20 yrs and although I still love my jw siblings, who've shunned me all this time, the lack of association and exchange of warmth and experiences, means I've cooled off quite a bit towards them. I still love them, but. I think it's called "the law of deminishing returns". I really don't know if we could rebuild again if they were to wake up. So much water has gone under the bridge....................
Marilyn