I don't hate myself because I have what I consider to be a noble reason. It justifies the abuse I put myself through. I'd like for my family to stay together until the Watchtower self-destructs. I could walk away but my family is destroyed. I don't want that so I have to go hear our lame Circuit Overseer tonight tell us how Field Service is the most important thing that has ever existed on earth. These ancient CO's have completely lost touch with the reality for most of the members. They live in all-expenses-paid housing and get free gas. Ours even has DirecTV (I am not kidding). I assume that one of the elders is footing the bill for that personall, but why does a Circuit Overseer need 500 channels of television?
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