Quite noticeably, with all the talk of new light and a God of light, I thought the light was getting brighter each time a new book or Washtowel came out. Then, when I landed on my first apostate site, I felt as if someone turned on the lights. So much for Jehovah being a God of light.
The witlesses also ruined my chances of meeting the opposite sex. I was trained to not approach them, making them uneasy (plus the hounders and hounder-hounders made sure I would not be accepted at a$$emblies). The kicker was that they told me that Jehovah had something "much better" in store for me. It didn't even take a visit to an apostate site (in fact, it was the reason why I went to one) to realize that that "something else" was nothing other than a trip through the Value Destroyer Training School. And then an assignment to help the Washtowel Slaveholdery get its Second Dark Ages off the ground. And Jehovah would not take "no" for an answer to this "something else", prompting me to go apostate.
If that "value destroyer training school" and starting the Second Dark Ages is the "happiness" that the witlesses are pursuing, then I would rather just be apostate and in the true light.