Thanks all. I am no longer in therapy. I have tried two therapists and one of my psychiatrists was essentially my favorite therapist to boot. All three expressed strong doubt my marriage would make it, and basically encouraged me to seperate.....two of them met with my wife and me.......and while they like her, they know she is under total JW control, and they all think it is a cult. I asked for marital counseling at one session with my wife but of course she will only rely on the bruddas for that. I think the docs cant see me moving on much while so closely linked to this cult by my wife, and it is a constant reminder.
I have read a book about postive affirmations and positve thinking, but have not been able to make myself exercise as hard as I need to.......I really need to push myself there. I must have tried 10 different meds the past three years, and can tell very little effect with them....not everbody responds to them I was told. I was takin up to five things at one time, so am glad to be down to just one thing. I may be too afraid to make decisions I don't really want to face........and I think that is what is really paralyzing me.........oompa