Oompa - I've only been away from the KH for about 3 months now. At first I was depressed because of the lack of anyone to talk to(social depression) and probably a little cabin fever from the winter. But, for the last 3 years I was more depressed from going to the KH. It made me feel somewhat suicidal at times, even though I wouldn't attempt it I just thought that would be the easy way out. All the guilt trips they dish out from the platform. The stupid acts some of the witlesses put on is just sickening. Too melodramatic for me.
Since I no longer attend the meetings I have focused my energy into what I once loved to do before becoming a Witless, I work constantly. I am always doing soemthing with a hammer & nail, chain saw, rake etc...Except drywall! I hate that sh#t! I sometimes don't eat any supper and don't get in until 9:30-10PM. Take a shower and hit the hay. Up at 7AM can't wait to get to work and socialize with a bunch of nonJW's.
I Drink beer and cuss with my brothers (nonJW's). If I had more $$ I would buy a scooter (Harley or Triumph and I just sold one earlier this year because my son ran the tits off it!) and I would take some me time and cruise. Whether it's for a couple of minutes, hours or days. Anything but focus on the KH/WTBTS. The only time they come to mind is when I am here on JWD but the thinking is focused differently.
I am no doctor here and no two people are tha same but my advice is to get out and enjoy and just hope you can get the rest of your family out. I feel for you man and I hope the best for you!
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Quirky1