Oompa, I'm so sorry for your pain. There are so many good thoughts already here. I would like to reiterate what others have said about the physical exercise. Don't dismiss it because it is a simple thing. I am a success story and this is what saved my life when all the pills couldn't help. I had read that if you could make yourself hit it hard for two weeks, something would change in your brain.
Looking back, I would say there were three things that gave me a new start in life.
Get a goal (for me, there was one thing that was important for me to do before I died)
Build yourself up to be able to realize the goal ( exercise)(Took me about six months to get there)
Find someone who truly cares for you.
We who have been there are all pulling for you.