Hang in there brother. It's a bad ride but if you hang on it will get better.
In 2000 I lost my marriage of 20 years (thanks to the help of wtbs)...lost my business that was bringing me in $170k a year...lost my faith... wound up living in my office. I slept away the days on a futon...drinking heavily. I went to therapy which helped a lot. They put me on three diff meds which helped at first but scared me when they said I'd be on them forever...so i slowly got off of them as therapy continued to help. My income dropped to homeless level....I lost my office...my daughter would not come to see me...and then I got cancer. It's been one hellava 7 year ride. I met a woman in 2002 that helped me get thru some of the crap and this past year things have started to look up finacially...although not there yet.
All I can say is find someone (hopefully qualified) to talk to. Remember to love yourself. You have a lot to offer the world. Join a gym for the physical lift and the social aspects...beats drinking heavily. I was affiliated with the dubs for 50 years but I quickly realized there are a LOT of realy nice people in the "world" who will take the time to care about you. The WTBS is not a supportive group no matter what they say. If you wanna talk you can pm me.
-BONEZZ