my mind is so constantly focused on JW crap and how to get my family out
isn't this a part of accepting the things I can't change? What I am learning is to not expect my family (husband) to change, and then make my personal decisions, set my personal direction according to what I can manage within that. For me, I had to get away. You have to live your life oompa, today, you can't wait for others to change.
Is there anyway you can set some boundaries around your issues , and try living, breathing your own air so to speak?