Dawg,
I could hug your guts out.
Yeah, I spent my years from 18-34 alone in this mess. It does help to have someone to talk to who has been there. No one else could ever possibly understand what we went through. That is why we need each other.
About your God comments, I believe the same. It was always in my prayers to find people who think like me (or were damaged like me). That prayer was answered about 1,000 fold.
Also, I was blessed with an open-minded husband who lets me be ME! It's priceless. He knows I spend alot of time on here and he seems to think it helps.
I've come along way from crawling in his lap and crying like a baby.
We are just all looking to fill a void. Drugs, sex, sex, and rock n roll worked for awhile then you start to feel so EMPTY.
You're doing good, Dawg and I just love ya!