Msil,
May I asked what country you're in?
I've got questions about your time in prison, if I may: How long were you imprisoned for neutrality? Was it the incarceration itself that caused you trouble, or were you treated badly while you served your time?
I was draft age in the late 60's and obtained my conscientious objector's deferrment and then a ministerial deferrment (I was pioneering). I fully expected to have to go to prison - my "elders" led me to believe that only the worst could happen - and was very happy not to have to go.
I will certainly understand if you prefer not to discuss these things.
I wish you well.