Welcome, Mary.
I agree with ldrnomo. Some honest-hearted ones can no longer stomach the hypocrisy and lack of love and are driven away. Hopefully Jesus will think we are salvageable. If not, we will be sure to have better lives now, for all the sacrifices we have made.
The opinions here are so diverse, I'm sure this place will help us newbies to gain a much better understanding of the important things.