Welcome to JWD Maryblondgrl! 
I was a third generation witness too, last surviving member in my family when I left. My grandmother converted after hearing Ruthford's famous "Millions Now Living Will Never Die" talk. Does that tell you anything? He was spirit annointed and yet pretty much everyone who heard that talk has since died. 
just can't get over the fear factor. Watch the news and it scares the crap out of me. Wonder daily...no...make that hourly....if its really winding down and about to fall into place. Anyone else share that fear? Or do you get over it eventually?
I used to worry, I got over it and I believe you can too. That's how mind control groups like the JW's work. Fear factor. Once you can recognise it, the fear quickly begins to disappear.