She is not happy that I am on JWD... in fact the other day she picked up the keyboard and wanted to throw it accros the room or bash me with it when she saw I was on JWD
The statement I have highlighted in red concerns me a great deal. That's abuse and the threat of bodily harm and I am sorry there is no excuse religious or not for a woman to threaten a man or do something like that to a man. That's not healthy, and no matter what else, you need to think long and hard about being with a person like that.
There is an under-reporting of female to male spousal abuse, if I were you, I would keep a documented account of every time you had a confrontion like that and what was said.