I think in the beginning they probably did have good motives, but power, even a little bit, corrupts over time. Business gets big and all the decisions are made to sustain it; people become statistics.
I used to think that Babylon the Great would fall because money would be taken away; but now I think it's more about the power.
Think of an elder you know that is a complete ass (one that was not born in, but came in off the street). Very likely someone like that had a good heart in the beginning. But power corrupted.
No, over time, it becomes all about the ritual, as someone said. There is no love there. You can't seem to find anyone who even understands the principle of love on a practical day-to-day basis.
I went back and read some of your posts - you seem to be honestly searching for some answers. Your apology touched me. Not everyone here has abandoned all belief. I still believe the basic tenets of JW. If WBTS would issue a huge apology and all step down and stop all their foolishness, I would give it a second look.